Today, I write this letter from a place where I can witness the beauty of dissolution – the quiet washing away of the old self, the gradual fading of the person I once believed myself to be.

Since childhood, a few questions have always echoed within me: Why was I born? What is this life? What is this world? Who am I? Though I did not yet understand their depth, there was always a deep, unspoken longing to know the true nature of my existence. As I grew, I read books on spirituality, attended satsangs and listened to countless talks, hoping to find answers to these questions. The longing to find God – to merge with Him – only grew stronger with time. No pleasure, possession or relationship of this world could satisfy the heart; it was clear that fulfillment lay elsewhere.

Even after achieving the career I desired, the relationship I had hoped for and the comforts I thought important, something within remained unfulfilled. The cries of separation from God began to bring tears to my eyes daily and the pain became unbearable. Then, a new dimension of devotion opened up within me. It became clear: the sole purpose of this life is to know God, to unite with Him, to discover the true nature of our own existence.

As devotion deepened, the ideas, opinions, and prejudices of the mind began to lose their grip. The mind, once so important, became merely an object of observation. I began to glimpse what it means to simply be – to exist without the false self, without the personality. Through devotion, doors began to open – doors that seemed, to the rational mind, utterly illogical and even foolish. Yet Grace held my hand and walked me through them.

When I first heard the name Leowe, my heart instantly recognized the embodiment of the Divine. Tears began to flow, and a profound stillness descended. My mind could not comprehend how I could cry merely at the mention of someone I had never met or seen, nor why my heart felt such an intense, undeniable urge to meet Him. When I finally did, the experience was overwhelming beyond words. My heart simply whispered, “Come Home.” Though my mind protested -“How can you travel to a strange city to meet a stranger in the middle of your medical degree?” – these thoughts held no power. My heart led me Home to God and I followed.

After meeting Him in the physical form, I knew with absolute clarity that there was no turning back. This Life was no longer mine; it was for God alone – to live from the heart, to serve Him completely.

The mind may still wonder: What about the world left behind? Won’t things go wrong? Who will take care of it all? But everything exists within God; nothing is beyond Him. If the mere longing for Him brings tears to your eyes – if even His name evokes weeping – then He Himself will take care of everything. I have only devotion for Him and He takes care of the rest. In one stroke, He dissolved twenty-eight years of attachments and bondages – burdens that might have taken decades to release if I had tried alone. In His kindness, He freed me within days.

Every day with Leowe is like a purification. Hidden patterns of the ego rise to the surface to be dissolved and I am filled with gratitude as these shadows are brought into the light and burned away in the Sun of Consciousness. Each day, I become more like a child – without likes or dislikes, simply playing in the lap of the Father. Time and again, God grants these eyes revelations — unveiling ever deeper dimensions of life, subtleties so tender and vast that words can only bow in silence before them. There is only gratitude: for existing, for being alive, for this very moment. Every moment now feels suffused with bliss and grace.

I am simply here – Life itself – serving God, playing in His lap with childlike innocence, free from the suffering of the mind, living from the Heart. This is a blessing beyond measure. God, in His infinite kindness, like a loving Mother, has made all this possible for me. No prayer could ever express the depth of my gratitude for His grace.

Now there is only Him – within and without. He is everything I see, everything I know, everything I am. 🙏

with Love
Radhe (Child of God)